So my nightmare semester is officially over! I call it my nightmare semester because it has been nothing short of terrible. I won't bore you with the details, however, I will tell you this... my life is a mess(literally) because of it. In reality it could have been worse because I survived it and passed my classes, so for that I am thankful!
          So I was going through my day yesterday running errands and paying bills and I decided to catch up on some team calls in the process. Every call, every story, there I was in the middle of it. It was like each and everything said was meant for me at that very moment. Sounds strange I know, but have you ever had that moment in your life where it just clicked? Yesterday I had it, I had my AHA moment!
            For the past 4 months I have been waking up each day and just doing what I need to do to get through the day and survive. Is this how I want to live my life, is this how I want to raise my children, by merely going through life in survival mode? HELLLLL NO!!! I want to live my life and I want to live it well! I have been given this wonderful opportunity to share my story, to help others, to make a difference in their lives, but I haven't been doing anything meaningful with it. That's sad, just plain sad. And to be honest it's because I'm a freaking scaredy cat! I shared my Aha moment with my husband last night and like many of my rants, he just politely said okay baby and rolled his eyes. He knows I can be a slight drama queen at times... and really just slight ;) . But I was serious, I'm tired of living in this rut. I want to actually do the things we say we're going to do and visit those places we say a thousand times we're going to visit. I want bigger and better and we deserve it damnit!!!! So I told him, that I thought to myself why, Why is it that I have been in the optical industry for nine years and I can confidently sell anyone a pair of glasses that cost said dollar amount without batting an eyelash, Why is it that I changed my major a bizillion times and decided on teaching without caring about what anyone else thought about my decision, but that the moment I chose to enter the fitness & nutrition industry that I became scared. I have been scared of what friends would think, what family would say, how others would view me. Why?! This is MY life and I'm free to do with it whatever I please and I have gone 26 years of my life giving little thought as to what others thought about me, so why now? I feel like being a coach, helping people is part of what I am meant to do at this stage of my life. I view life as a book full of chapters and I have many chapters already signed, sealed, and delivered, ready for publishing, but this chapter is a full on work in progress.
            I have vowed that for the next 30days I will be getting my life in order. School literally took over my life. My house is in disarray, there are toys everywhere, books & papers piled high, laundry stacked for days upon days, just a plain mess. Some call it motherhood, but I call it life disorganization!  When everything is organized and time is managed, you feel better and that's what I'm after. I'm ready to feel better, to feel whole again.

My Workouts

Near and Dear to my heart.... My "Soul-Mate" Workout.. Insanity! It was my first Beachbody program I completed and I chose to become a Coach 30days in. I got amazing results in 60Days...this is ONLY a 10lb difference people! Goes to show, take the numbers on the scale with a grain of salt! 

I'm currently using Shaun T.'s new workout FocusT25 which is a 5 day a week program for only 25minutes a day. I'll get back to you with the completed results when I finish. I LOVE the new program. It's perfect for a busy mom like myself! I also own the following programs, which I have tried a workout or two because I'm impatient ;) .....
    TurboFire-Chalene Johnson
    HipHop Abs- Shaun T.
    Insanity Asylum- Shaun T.
Notice the trend.. I'm a little bit of a Shaun T. freak.. What can I say, the man's a fitness Genius! If there are any programs you want to know more about, contact me! I will be glad to give you as much info as you need or desire :)

To wait or not to wait?!...That was the question!

     Well I had started this blog with the intent not to go "live" with it until after the first of the year, but the impatient part of myself won the battle and here it is, my very first post! I had been debating to start a blog for some odd months now because I'm better with words. I'm not one who likes to write my whole life story on Facebook or announce to the world what's been going on in my life. However, I have a lot I need to share and get out. I began this year with some Big and I mean BIG goals for myself. The focus of 2013 was me. Sounds a little self-absorbed I know, but being a wife and a mother of two, the subject of "me" gets lost in translation 95% of the time. Someone asks, tell me about yourself, I immediately jump to who I am to others. I am those things, but who was I before them? What did I love to do, what made Me happy before them? It's truly hard to think about, but I loved to sing & listen to music, I loved to go out with friends, I loved to spend time alone shopping, reading, going to the beach, working out. Ahhh..... working out...My go to frustration reliever. What happened to that?.. Right Life.. that's what happened. 
       So enter New Years Resolution 2013.. WORKOUT, BE HEALTHY, LOSE WEIGHT. What's so different about this resolution from any of the billions of other Americas who share the same resolution as myself?.. nothing really, except this year I made it a point to stick to it. I didn't go out and get a gym membership, nutritionist, or a personal trainer. I decided to dust off the Insanity DVD's that were sitting in my entertainment center for the last six months, made the commitment to eat clean, and got to work! The first 3 months of the year I struggled, after going to the doctor and finding out I had some medical issues weighing against me, we fixed the issues and I restarted in April. This time, what I was doing worked! HALLELUJAH!!!! In the midst of my first 30days of Insanity I met my wonderful mentor and coach and by month two I decided to become a coach myself. I completed Insanity with some AMAZING results in 60 days and I moved on. School started back up, my son entered kindergarten, and life happened. I haven't been as focused, as motivated, and as driven as I was in the beginning, but I haven't given up either. To date I have lost 30lbs since January and 40lbs since this time last year. Something was missing, something hasn't felt right, and this folks, this is it. My chance to share my story, share my struggles, my triumphs and not only in health and fitness, but life in general. This roller coaster called life is not easy, but if you have goals, reach for them and strive for them daily. Focus on YOU! Because the more happy and confident you are within yourself, the better person you are going to be for those around you!