So my nightmare semester is officially over! I call it my nightmare semester because it has been nothing short of terrible. I won't bore you with the details, however, I will tell you this... my life is a mess(literally) because of it. In reality it could have been worse because I survived it and passed my classes, so for that I am thankful!
          So I was going through my day yesterday running errands and paying bills and I decided to catch up on some team calls in the process. Every call, every story, there I was in the middle of it. It was like each and everything said was meant for me at that very moment. Sounds strange I know, but have you ever had that moment in your life where it just clicked? Yesterday I had it, I had my AHA moment!
            For the past 4 months I have been waking up each day and just doing what I need to do to get through the day and survive. Is this how I want to live my life, is this how I want to raise my children, by merely going through life in survival mode? HELLLLL NO!!! I want to live my life and I want to live it well! I have been given this wonderful opportunity to share my story, to help others, to make a difference in their lives, but I haven't been doing anything meaningful with it. That's sad, just plain sad. And to be honest it's because I'm a freaking scaredy cat! I shared my Aha moment with my husband last night and like many of my rants, he just politely said okay baby and rolled his eyes. He knows I can be a slight drama queen at times... and really just slight ;) . But I was serious, I'm tired of living in this rut. I want to actually do the things we say we're going to do and visit those places we say a thousand times we're going to visit. I want bigger and better and we deserve it damnit!!!! So I told him, that I thought to myself why, Why is it that I have been in the optical industry for nine years and I can confidently sell anyone a pair of glasses that cost said dollar amount without batting an eyelash, Why is it that I changed my major a bizillion times and decided on teaching without caring about what anyone else thought about my decision, but that the moment I chose to enter the fitness & nutrition industry that I became scared. I have been scared of what friends would think, what family would say, how others would view me. Why?! This is MY life and I'm free to do with it whatever I please and I have gone 26 years of my life giving little thought as to what others thought about me, so why now? I feel like being a coach, helping people is part of what I am meant to do at this stage of my life. I view life as a book full of chapters and I have many chapters already signed, sealed, and delivered, ready for publishing, but this chapter is a full on work in progress.
            I have vowed that for the next 30days I will be getting my life in order. School literally took over my life. My house is in disarray, there are toys everywhere, books & papers piled high, laundry stacked for days upon days, just a plain mess. Some call it motherhood, but I call it life disorganization!  When everything is organized and time is managed, you feel better and that's what I'm after. I'm ready to feel better, to feel whole again.